Monthly Archives: June 2009

Word Collage


Marker on paper. Done by Sierra June 09


Keep it separate?


Most everywhere we post, we do so openly, as a DID system. We strongly dislike hiding.

There is one exception and this is with our cross-stitching. In our cross-stitching groups we all post under patches, or Sierra, We spend a lot of time trying to come across as one.

We wanted, needed a place where our DID didn’t matter, where we didn’t feel it could be an issue, or made us different. We want/wanted? to be just like everyone else.

This has caused a problem though. There are stitching people who have a multiply account and we are now wondering do we invite them or not? It’s such a difficult decision for us.

We belong to a few cross-stitch groups and we enjoy them. We found one that is owned by someone in one of our groups that is for stitchers with mental or phsyical problems. We want to join but are afraid. We are afraid of being ostracized and of who knows what else. We just don’t know what to do.

For now we continue to keep it separate, perhaps some day that will change.

Computer Woes


We’ve all been there haven’t we? Whether it is a problem you know is coming or one that suddenly happens, computer problems are a pain.

I’ve known this was coming. Last night after the computer crashed one time too many, I decided i’d reinstall windows today. It’s xp and it is a known thing with XP that reinstalls every so often really help it run best. I spent hours backing up everything to disks, then came the big moment,


Nothing. Yep that is right windows disk won’t run. It starts to run but then stops, freezes. After trying numerous fixes for it— nothing. So……………..

I downloaded Ubuntu (Linux, It’s free ya know)…………..

and………………. (you know where this is going right?)

nothing. Well not quite. With Ubuntu you can run it from the install disk so that is what I am doing, but it won’t install on the computer……

Memtest86 showed many errs so I have bad RAM. I also think the hard drive is going.

So—- I ordered a new hard drive and new RAM. From (they are AWESOME) Should be here early next week.

Until then I have to use the Live CD version of Ubuntu, I shouldn’t complain as it is better than nothing, but there is barely any memory so I can’t run my journaling software or anything. Least I can get online and also Ubuntu came with some games on it, so good thing there.

I’m glad that I can get online as otherwise I would have had to go to Microcenter. (DON’T GO THERE IF YOU CAN HELP IT). I hate that store. 3 years ago when I built this computer from parts, we went there often for one thing or another. Without fail they only would talk to nathan (hubby), no matter if I asked the questions, or if Nathan said “talk to my wife I don’t know about this stuff”, they would only look at and talk to him.

Unfortunatly microcenter is the only computer store in the area so if I couldn’t get online I would have had no choice.



So for about a week now, every day hubby says we are grumpy, and asks us why. Every day we tell him that we aren’t grumpy.

Today though I can feel it, I feel grumpy, more than that though I feel angry, I feel that anger boiling below the surface, and honestly?
It terrifies me. I run from anger, it scares me a lot.

I don’t know how to deal with this.