Missing Memories

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We have come a long way, we realize that. What we don’t like to think about is that our life still has HUGE holes in it. This is normal for a multiple.

We don’t know each others stories, for the most part. We like it that way though know that may change at some point.

Still we know some few bits, a bit here a bit there about many inside. Their are some exceptions. One of them ae those we call ‘ the S patches’. All their names begin with an ‘S’. We know next to nothing about them.

One of them is Silence. Her name says what we know about her. She is a teen and she can’t speak. We have a few like that inside, but Silence stands out in one way, she does not communicate at all. We think she hears though we aren’t sure.

From looking in past journals, she seems to come out durung December. Of course when she is front we loose the ability to communicate.thank goodness for Nathan to help us piece some things together.

It seems likely that she came to be in December. That whatever the reason she doesn’t communicate happenend in December. Unfortunatly because she doesn’t communicate- our hands are tied. There isn’t much we can do. According to Nathan ‘the S Patches’ relate somehow to the father.

There is another member around only in December. Her name is Keyna. What we know about her is disturbing. The grandfathers birthday was the 17th of the month- Keyna was a ‘present’ for him. I don’t think I have to say what sort of present she was.

We know that there is a little- Anne who has a bad memory involving a christmas tree.

In later years we were shipped from parent to parent as per the custody agreement. Those are the sum of our lifetinme December memories.

We know there is a lot missing. And so we just do our best during December not really knowing or understanding why we get so upset and out of whack.

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