Having a rough time. I guess it shouldn’t be a surprise- it is that time of year for us. I dunno though. Guess we want to not do this every year we don’t want Troy to deal with this every year.
Yet at the same time- we don’t know if we can care for him and work on memories too.
For most of our lives we thought it went from february right to may.
We are trying so hard to stop the SI. We don’t want Troy to grow up with a mom who does that. Yet sometimes there is nothing else that helps. But we try so hard. is that enough? Carolyn says it is.